About this video

• Video Title: August 23, 2025
• Channel: Anzu Corduroy Dino
• Speakers: [No speaker name identified in the transcript]
• Duration: 00:13:52

Overview

This video is a personal reflection where the speaker discusses their current professional and personal life, hobbies, family relationships, and self-assessment of strengths and weaknesses. The speaker is pursuing a master's degree in creative writing, has published two novels, and is working on a third. They also touch on past food service experience, current part-time work scanning files for a physical therapy clinic, and aspirations to potentially open a restaurant. A significant portion of the video is dedicated to detailing complicated family dynamics, particularly with their mother and grandmother, and concludes with the speaker's thoughts on caring, self-pressure, spirituality, and their generally "chill" demeanor.

Key takeaways

• Current Professional Pursuits: The speaker is nearing completion of their bachelor's degree and will soon begin a master of fine arts program in creative writing. They have published two novels and are editing a third for upcoming publication.
• Past and Current Employment: Previously worked in food service for several years at various establishments. Currently, they are employed part-time scanning patient files for their mother's physical therapy clinic, a job they find unfulfilling.
• Family Dynamics: Describes a complicated and often dysfunctional relationship with their mother, though family therapy is planned. Their relationship with their grandmother is also strained, characterized by criticism and a lack of support. They have a better relationship with their father.
• Hobbies and Interests: Enjoys reading, writing, painting, playing video games, going on drives to explore new places, and cooking. They used to draw but find it difficult due to carpal tunnel.
• Self-Assessment: Identifies "caring" as a primary strength, viewing it as fundamental to humanity. Weaknesses include self-imposed pressure, being overly critical of themselves, and a tendency to "shut down" emotionally. Spirituality and a connection to a higher power are seen as significant strengths.
• Aspirations: Expresses a desire to eventually live off their writing or potentially open a tavern-style restaurant.

The speaker states they have worked in food service for "like 3 to four years, give or take, probably longer." They specifically mention working at a Dairy Queen and a Subway, and spent two years at a university dining hall, which they initially considered their favorite job until it changed. Currently, they are not doing anything related to food service but are scanning files and putting them into digital documents for patients at their mother's physical therapy clinic. This is a part-time job, and they express that they do not care for it, feeling it is a "dead end" and they are "begrudgingly doing what I got to do to make money."

The speaker describes their family situation as "complicated." While they have a better relationship with their dad now than in the past, their relationship with their mom is "rough," "not the best," and "very dysfunctional." However, their mom has recently expressed a desire to try family therapy, and an appointment has been made for late October to address their issues. The speaker acknowledges having issues with their mom, and believes their mom has issues with them because they "didn't exactly turn out the way she wanted." They also mention their mom wasn't always what they needed growing up and was "blatantly cruel" during their middle and high school years.

Regarding their grandmother, the speaker lives with her but they do not have a great relationship. Unlike their mother, the grandmother doesn't seem to want to fix their relationship. Recently, they argued, and the grandmother commented on the speaker gaining weight, attributing it to their antidepressants and pressuring them to quit taking them. The speaker feels their grandmother is a "very self-centered person" who views things "egocentrically and self-centeredly" and is "very hateful and bitter." The speaker mentions their grandfather agrees with and sides with the grandmother all the time, which makes the speaker feel a certain way.

The speaker enjoys reading and writing, which aligns with their pursuit of a Master of Fine Arts in creative writing. They also like to paint, finding it easier than drawing due to carpal tunnel syndrome in their left hand, which makes drawing more difficult. They play video games sometimes and enjoy streaming and chatting with friends while doing so. Additionally, they like going on drives to explore new places and enjoy the journey, even if it's a small one. Cooking is another significant interest; they express loving to cook and believe they can cook "about anything I set my mind to," which makes it fun for them. They also mentioned they used to draw but have developed carpal tunnel in their left hand.

The speaker considers "caring a lot" to be their primary strength, stating, "it's all we really got at the end of the day. It's just our ability to care for other people. That's essentially all that we're here for." They believe this ability to care is what makes humans, human.

As for weaknesses, the speaker admits to putting a lot of pressure on themselves and being "very hard on myself most of the time." They were a good worker in previous jobs because they wanted to be the best and were "paranoid about not doing enough or not being enough." Their biggest fear is "that I'm not enough that I'm not doing enough for those around me." Another weakness they identify is that they sometimes "shut down."

Regarding spirituality, the speaker sees it as a significant strength, stating that having a connection with a higher power, "God or who what you perceive to be God," is "always a strength. It's never a weakness." They believe that dropping one's ego and acknowledging that "someone else is and it's God" is one of the greatest strengths mankind can have. They also mention that many friends describe them as "really chill" and sometimes "too chill," attributing this to teaching themselves to "go with the flow" and letting a higher power handle situations.