About this video

• Video Title: Cici's Ennea Typing Video 1/2
• Channel: Cicilka
• Speakers: Cici (implied)
• Duration: 00:07:31

Overview

In this video, Cici addresses questions about her personality and habits, touching upon her struggles with routine, her approach to academics, and her choices for profile pictures and life goals. She shares her thoughts in Portuguese, with the intention of being natural and possibly using YouTube's auto-generated captions.

Key takeaways

• Cici finds it difficult to establish and maintain routines, a trait that has persisted since childhood and was noted by her mother during an autism assessment.
• She experiences a lack of motivation and energy for her studies, despite not disliking her college course, leading her to feel like attending classes is often a waste of time.
• Her current profile picture is a drawing of herself in the art style of a game she enjoyed, a design made by her ex-boyfriend years ago, which she has used on other social media platforms.
• Cici expresses uncertainty about her life goals, having lacked a clear vision for her future even when deciding on college, and currently chose computer science because it "felt right" within that context.

Here is a detailed, point-by-point guide to the video with time codes:

• 0:01 - 0:04: Cici starts the video, mentioning it's been a while since she's wanted to record this.
• 0:04 - 0:07: She felt motivated to record today.
• 0:07 - 0:12: Her friend Doom had been asking her to make this video for a while.
• 0:14 - 0:17: She considered whether to answer in Portuguese or English.
• 0:17 - 0:22: Cici decided to answer in Portuguese to be more natural, planning to use subtitles or YouTube's auto-captions.
• 0:34 - 0:37: The first question is about the first impression she likes to give.
• 0:37 - 0:49: Cici states she hasn't thought much about it and doesn't try to give a specific impression; it's situational.
• 0:49 - 0:58: She genuinely doesn't know what to say about this, finding it hard to name specific traits.
• 1:00 - 1:05: Cici mentions negative qualities, starting with her lifelong struggle to establish a routine, as her mother used to point out.
• 1:05 - 1:14: Despite her mother trying to teach her to have a routine since childhood, she never succeeded.
• 1:14 - 1:26: She mentions having an autism diagnosis she doesn't fully agree with. During the assessment, her psychologist asked if she had routines, expecting a positive answer.
• 1:26 - 1:36: Her mother responded that Cici tried to have routines since she was little, but she simply wouldn't accept them.
• 1:45 - 1:57: Cici is currently in college but doesn't dedicate herself much, not because she dislikes her course, but due to a lack of energy and motivation to put in more effort.
• 2:00 - 2:05: She feels she could put in more effort but lacks the "pique" and disposition for it.
• 2:05 - 2:17: Instead, she focuses on many "useless" things, pursuing knowledge that doesn't actually help her, while her college studies fall behind.
• 2:17 - 2:26: She also attributes this to laziness, finding any kind of sport very difficult.
• 2:37 - 2:46: Cici lacks disposition, making her not very dedicated to anything,
• 2:46 - 2:58: except for "foolish things" (bobagens) where she goes in-depth, like researching games she plays until she understands everything thoroughly.
• 3:03 - 3:13: She reflects that her ability to "destrinchar" (dissect/analyze) things deeply could be considered a quality, depending on the context.
• 3:18 - 3:27: Cici finds it hard to name qualities because many of her strengths also have negative aspects depending on the situation.
• 3:31 - 3:37: She is asked about an average day and if she would change anything.
• 3:39 - 3:46: Naturally, she would sleep late and wake up late, but college routines force her to wake up early.
• 3:46 - 4:00: She attends her classes but often feels mentally absent, lacking the attention to learn anything during lectures.
• 4:00 - 4:13: She can study and learn effectively if she does it later, but considers class time a waste of time, attending only for attendance.
• 4:13 - 4:24: She doesn't mind missing class because whether she's there or at home, she feels disengaged and wouldn't be doing anything important anyway.
• 4:24 - 4:34: She often doesn't mind having to [miss class/stay home].
• 4:37 - 4:48: At home, she studies.
• 4:48 - 4:51: She clarifies she does study, but doesn't do much else.
• 4:55 - 5:02: If she could change something, she thinks she might feel better if she tried to be more active.
• 5:02 - 5:08: However, she feels she cannot be more active.
• 5:08 - 5:22: Cici admits she tends to take the path of least resistance and ends up not doing much.
• 5:25 - 5:31: Her normal day, besides attending class, involves staying home, studying, playing games, and reading.
• 5:44 - 5:49: When asked how she chooses her profile picture, she admits she doesn't usually have a good idea of what to put.
• 5:49 - 5:56: By default, she puts photos of her cats as a placeholder.
• 5:58 - 6:03: For example, her current Discord profile picture is a drawing.
• 6:03 - 6:16: It's from a game she liked, and her ex-boyfriend at the time made a drawing of her in that game's art style.
• 6:16 - 6:22: This drawing has been her default profile picture for years on other social media.
• 6:25 - 6:33: She maintains this default (the drawing or cat photos) so she has something to put as a profile picture.
• 6:39 - 6:42: The final question is about her life goals.
• 6:46 - 6:54: Cici had a lot of difficulty knowing what she wanted to do when she finished high school, even though she knew she would go to college.
• 6:54 - 6:59: She didn't have a clear idea of what she wanted to study or pursue.
• 6:59 - 7:08: She thought many things were interesting but nothing stood out as a passion that could also provide financial returns.
• 7:08 - 7:16: She chose computer science because it felt like the right fit among her interests.
• 7:16 - 7:23: She mentions meeting a childhood friend who is studying medicine and asked Cici what she was doing.
• 7:23 - 7:29: Cici responded that she is studying computer science.